I lost myself~

Recently I insomnia again…I keep thinking and some more felt sad…. I get bad news about my exam, I fail…

YP’s mother not like me just because I am catholic and my hand is 断掌. Honestly to say that I feel sadness and started thinking it is what I want?  why so hard to get my dream relationship?  I keep thinking how to get his mom’s heart or how to talk with his mom? I feel like wanna give up because everything seems like not what I want…

Some more I feel a bit hurt because kelly said me whining… I thought jimui is sharing, dim ji is wrong… maybe I also fault… I should stop it to sharing with them…

Now my life seems like messy up everything… where my life? I want a previous life that lifestyle… I hate trouble and worry the feeling… I don’t want insomnia again..

I already not dare to post out my status on facebook… my heart really not comfortable… is it I too care about this relationship?  I need control and be natural… BUT I know easy to say and hard to do… I try my best to do it…

2016 年 – 我有男朋友了

其实我也没想过这样就有男朋友。。不知道叻~ 我脑我心的确有出现跟他一起生活未来的日子的憧憬。。 但是相处了和了解后,我们的确有点小小冲突,宗教,金钱,家庭背景。。。 我知道我们需要磨合和需要一人去退一步和妥协。。但是我怕有天我妥协久了,心累了,就会放弃这段感情。。

刚刚我们有点小争吵,他很怕我家人占他便宜。。。的确我心有点不开心和不爽。。他们是我家人,如果他真的那么怕,我真的会考虑放弃这段感情。。。 既然他不能接受我的家人,我也不想勉强。。

虽然我们有提到要结婚,但是现在的情况,我暂时不想我跟他的结婚。。。我真的要考虑清楚。。。